Something to write home about

2006-08-10T00:09:00.000+08:00

Quote Me A Price For This...

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2006-07-27T00:55:00.000+08:00

Mr Stoner...

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2006-07-27T00:54:00.000+08:00

Mr Rocky..

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2006-03-27T18:36:00.000+08:00

One of my fav. under rated U2 songs...

Who's Gonna Ride Your Wild Horses

You're dangerous, 'cos you're honest.
You're dangerous, you don't know what you want.
Well you left my heart empty as a vacant lot
For any spirit to haunt.

You're an accident waiting to happen
You're a piece of glass left there on a beach.
Well you tell me things
I know you're not supposed to
Then you leave me just out of reach.

Who's gonna ride your wild horses?
Who's gonna drown in your blue sea?
Who's gonna ride your wild horses?
Who's gonna fall at the foot of thee?

Well you stole it 'cos I needed the cash
And you killed it 'cos I needed revenge.
Well you lied to me 'cos I asked you to.
Baby, can we still be friends?

Who's gonna ride your wild horses?
Who's gonna drown in your blue sea?
Who's gonna ride your wild horses?
Who's gonna fall at the foot of thee?

Ah, the deeper I spin
Ah, the hunter will sin for your ivory skin.
Took a drive in the dirty rain
To a place where the wind calls your name
Under the trees, the river laughing at you and me.
Hallelujah! Heaven's white rose
The doors you open I just can't close.

Don't turn around, don't turn around again.
Don't turn around your gypsy heart.
Don't turn around, don't turn around again.
Don't turn around, and don't look back.
Come on now love, don't you look back.

Who's gonna ride your wild horses?
Who's gonna drown in your blue sea?
Who's gonna taste your saltwater kisses?
Who's gonna take the place of me?
Who's gonna ride your wild horses?
Who's gonna tame the heart of thee?

2006-02-20T22:39:00.000+08:00

The Tele-Band Can!!

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2006-02-20T22:38:00.002+08:00

Marvel And Drool Boys...

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2006-02-20T22:38:00.001+08:00

Homat! Salutations~

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2006-02-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

2hrs Before Move Out, Last Check On Our Equipments And Our Last Chat...

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2006-02-20T22:35:00.000+08:00

We're Desperately Trying To Get Endorsement Deals From Fender!! Come And Sign Us!!!

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2006-02-20T22:33:00.000+08:00

Forward, We Advance And Take Hold What Is Ours!

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2006-01-23T12:02:00.000+08:00

All I Want Is You - U2

You say you want diamonds on a ring of gold
You say you want your story to remain untold.
All the promises we make
From the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you.

You say you'll give me a highway with no-one on it
Treasure, just to look upon it
All the riches in the night.

You say you'll give me eyes in the moon of blindness
A river in a time of dryness
A harbour in the tempest.
All the promises we make, from the cradle to the grave
When all I need is you.

You say you want your love to work out right
To last with me through the night.

You say you want diamonds on a ring of gold
Your story to remain untold
Your love not to grow cold.
All the promises we break, from the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you.

2006-01-16T14:41:00.000+08:00

Hey guys,
Though of sharing something I sent to my SF tech team.

The mission of Sonic Edge, which heads up Sonic Festival, is "To reach a broken and disaffected generation, particulary in the arts and music subculture, with the love of God."

Reaching out does mean preaching the gospel to the yet-to-be-saved's. However, preaching of the gospel is not the only factor. I would like to refer it as the beginning of reaching out. It is necessary, important and essential, but reaching out does not stop there. How do we know preaching of the gospel is so essential, especially in Paul's ministry?

"For if I preach the gospel, I have nothing to boast of, for I am under compulsion; for woe is to me if I do not preach the gospel." 1 Cor 9:16 (NASB)

Preaching of the gospel does not require a lot of preparation, but it does require one's humility and willingness. As I write all these, I am also a person who's on the journey of learning. I wish to share my experiences with all of you. I understand the difficulty of sharing God's good news to the yet-to-be-saved's, particulary to those close to us. However, many a times, the 'obstacle' is usualy ourselves.

"Then He said to His disciples, "The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Therefore beseech the Lord of the harvest to send out workers into His harvest."" Matt 9:37-38 (NASB)

Our Lord Jesus Christ Himself told His disciples to beseech, to ask of God the Father, to pray for more workers into the field for the harvest. What does this means to you and me? It does mean firstly we need to pray. However, what do we pray about? From this verse, we can see clearly that Jesus Christ wants us to pray for more workers, than the harvest! The gospel can be shared through the most basic ways; showing of REAL care, concern and love through practical actions to another being, especially to people who are unloveable. Through intimate association and building up of relationship, we will then be in a good position to share God's love for those who have wandered off His love.

After that, then we have to also ask ourselves, are we ready to die for God to be made known to all man? It may not necessarily means a physical death, but it definately does mean self denial and self sacrifice. We sing and profess our love for God and how we trust in His faithfulness. I believe this is a true test to our words and profession.

"For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." Phil 1:21 (NASB)

Lastly, God is calling out for His people to respond to His great commission.

"Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age." Matt 28:19-20 (NASB)

God is calling out to you and I, do you hear it?

"Then I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, "Whom shall I send, and who will go for Us?" Then I said, "Here am I. Send me!"" Isa 6:8 (NASB)

What will your response be?

2006-01-14T01:13:00.000+08:00

This whole week, my blog will pay a short tribute to FSF this week.

furtherseemsforever News

After seven years as a band with various lineups, 3 records and over a thousand shows, FSF agree it is time to move on to other things in our lives. We have enjoyed touring the world over these years, and meeting all of our incredible fans. All of the members of FSF remain the best of friends and look forward to the future, whatever it may bring.

Further Seems Forever will be playing our final shows in early 2006. They will be with the full electric band. We will be doing spot shows in various cities across the country and Canada. We will do our best to play as many places as possible but several members now have full-time jobs and other full time commitments. We hope to see all our fans out at the shows and look forward to playing for you one more time.

We won’t be recording a new record but there will be some unreleased material coming out as well as a DVD with live footage and videos.

We would like to thank all the people and bands who helped our band over the years and made it possible for us to do what we love. Without them behind the scenes we simply couldn’t have done this. Special thanks goes out to our families whose love, encouragement and understanding made it possible to be in this band.

We will be keeping our MySpace page current and you can check that page as well as this site for new info on shows, the DVD and any other FSF related news.

We wish everyone a great new year and hope to see you soon.

Jon, Derick, Josh, Chad and Steve
Further Seems Forever

2006-01-09T01:08:00.000+08:00

Hey all,
How's New Year for everyone?! I pray that everyone has been reviewing 2005 and setting new resolutions for 2006. Well, just thought of sharing mine for 2006 with everyone.

1. Complete all of Paul's letters by the end of the year.
* An estimation of 1book/mth
* A short write up after every book
* Share the write up every mth once
2. Personal Retreat
* Start with 2hr/wk retreat until end of Feb 06
* End with 1 half a day / mth at the end of the year
3. Savings
* Save at least SGD$50/mth from Jan 06 onwards for wedding
4. Sports
* Join and complete NUS biathelon in Feb 06
* Join and complete Army Half Marathon 06
* Click at least 10km/wk for jogs
* Continue playing soccer every Sat
5. Missions
* Attend mission training school
* Dedicate a mth of my post ORD to mission work
6. Education
* Select a local bible college by Oct 06.
* Enrol for Jan 07 semester

2005-12-13T16:10:00.000+08:00

As for this Christmas, just like the previous others. I'm always amazed at the idea of people buying into the idea of Santa Claus.

My question to them is:

"What the hell has Santa's got to do with Christmas?!It's the birth of Jesus Christ we're celebrating!"

2005-12-08T15:12:00.000+08:00

This is a short sharing about what I received out from the David Pierce Seminar. I would say he's a pioneer of such a ministry, such as Sonic Edge, reaching out to the youths especially those in the music subculture. David is from this ministry called Steiger (www.Steiger.org). And without Steiger, there might never have been Sonic Edge.

Firstly, he's straight to the point, and very in-your-face. Both at volume and message.

A little bkgrnd of what i'm about to share:

I have been praying to GOd for the gift of compassion for the lost, the passion and love for those who have not heard gospel of Jesus.

One of things that really hit me in MY face was when David shared about how bands were writing songs which were not relvent to them, subjects which they don't have either relevence or passion about, thus causing the song to sound cliche. The most heart-hitting thing was this, he said that "...if you have not even cried about that particular subject, how are you going to have passion about it? It'll all turn out to be cliches and nothing of God's revelations...!" This statement struck me not as an ex-band member or a musician, but more on a personal level. Basic question I asked myself after hearing it; "...Kevin, have you cried for the lost? You talk about wanting the passion, wanting to evangelise. But have you gotten a piece of God's heart for the lost?" I realised that at the end of the day, all those talks are useless! The reason behind my half-heartedness and unpassionate attitude lies with because I have not gotten a piece of His heart for the lost! I have not prayed for His love for the lost to come, I have not spent enough time with Him to know my Father's heart.

I thank God for allowing me to catch a glimpse of His passion for the lost when we kneeled and prayed together with David. It started a fire within me. As I reflect upon my past 4 yrs in SE, I can view myself as a vase, an empty one. I seemed to be on track with what SE is about, but inside, deep inside me, I do not have the Father's heart, the burden, the love, the passion for whom He has called me to; The broken, the disaffected, especially those in the arts and music subculture. It was great to have Jacky Pulinger sharing the wkend just before. She reminded me to pray for the Heart of Christ to burn inside me. I have been conciously praying since then and I thank God He sparked something yesterday.

On the practical side of things, I've decided to forgo my chance of watching U2 at Australia on 1 Apr 06, but to do missions instead with the money. It was a tough decision. For those who knows me well enough, knows how much I would love to watch U2 live.

"...If You will, I'm willing to go where You want me to. If there's no one who's willing to go to the place Your heart desires, send me, for I am Yours!" - Kevin Chow

2005-12-06T15:52:00.000+08:00

We didn't manage to get the tix for 31 Mar 06. We were saddened, disappointed. However, after visiting http://www.u2.com/news/index.php?mode=full&news_id=1832, we discovered that they are going to have another show due to overwhelming demands!!!Thrilled at the news as I am, I'll only start believing I'm watching U2 when I manage to get my hands on the tickets.

Whether or not I get them, I trust in God. Sounds funny to some of you, but I am totally putting my hope in God. If He has another purpose for the money, I'll gladly abide. In the mean time, I'll give this Sunday one last shot of hope!

"You have made people listen. You have made people care, and you have taught us that whether we are poor or prosperous, we have only one world to share. You have taught young people that they do have the power to change the world."
Kofi Annan (UN Secretary General) pays tribute to Bono, November 1999.

2005-12-04T04:08:00.000+08:00

Taken straight from U2.com - http://www.u2.com/tourinfo/

U2//VERTIGO//2006 Tour - Australia and New Zealand

17th March 2006 Auckland - Ericcson Stadium
21st March 2006 Brisbane - Queensland Sports & Athletics Centre
24th March 2006 Melbourne - Telstra Dome
28th March 2006 Adelaide - AAMI Stadium
31st March 2006 Sydney - Telstra Stadium

Hear Thee Hear Thee!!!
U2's Vertigo Tour 06 is dropping by Australia!!! This is one band which I die die must go for!!!I will be saving and scrimping for my budget there. U2 has impacted me in ways I cannot explain. It is something close to heart and watching them, is in my list of "In MY Life I Must Achieve". It's more than excited about going, it's going to be monumental, extraordinary and history making!It's something I can tell my kids and my kids' kids when I'll bring U2 into their lives just as they've entered mine. More than just the music...They're the biggest rock band in the world to me... I dare not proclaim I'm a hardcore fan, I'm only at rookie level...

2005-12-04T04:06:00.000+08:00

I wonder how does the Sydney one is going to look like?!

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2005-12-04T04:05:00.000+08:00

I Will Be One Of Them Soon!!!!Mar 06, here I come!!!!

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2005-11-05T05:22:00.000+08:00

Hey guys,
I know it's been a long time since my last entry. I guess nothing has been impacting me much as this recent event. Well, just been through a leaders' retreat and also had my own retreat with Shawn Li. This month has sure caused my learning curve to grow exponentially. God has been refining me with His fire evermore fiercely. Areas which I'm weak in, which I don't wish to take up leadership in, He is leading me on to take on the call to overcome them with Him.

For the You:

God is our strength and hope
Hold on steadfast to His grace and mercy
Lean not on our understanding but His Wisdom
He knows all, He wants the best for us
Pray on, Seek more, Pursue His heart deeper
Obediance will open up more blessings
He's the friend of the broken
He's the comfort we all need
Do not be dishearten by the obstacles
But pray on for His plan
Do not let this testimony go to waste
We've started a great foundation
Let us be fervent in keeping watch
Pray against the evil scheme of the enemy
The enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy
Stealing God's glory
Killing our faith and casting doubts about Jesus
Destroying Godly relationships
We shall not give up praying
But we shall surrender ourselves wholeheartedly
Like how Abraham surrendered his son to God
Abraham knew God's promise to him
One of which his descendents are like stars
He didn't give up on the promise
He surrendered his soul
Total reliance on our Heavenly Father
His peace I leave with you

Amen

2005-09-02T12:53:00.000+08:00

Thanks you all many many!!!!

Thanks to Sonic Edge Family for blessing me with the Line 6 Expression Pedal...There are simply too many ppl in the list when Jon Hems was reading out to me. However, this thanksgiving still goes out to each and everyone in the Sonic Edge Family. You may or may not have contributed financially to it, but each and everyone of you has played a significant part in my life's play. I was about to burst into tears when Jon Hems passed me the gift last nite. It not only demonstrated the love for each other in the SE Family, God's love and most of all, to me personally at this season of my life, He's more than proven Himself to be the faithful provider of my life. Thanks many beary once againy! And most of all, Thank You Jesus for this loving family you've graciously and generously blessed me with.

Oh yah, one more thing to clarify is this! My actual birthdate is 07091985, and not 01091985 as emailed out by friendster.com.

Love you all!! *muakz!

2005-08-22T17:38:00.000+08:00

Realised that I have not been blogging for quite a while. Just gonna leave a msg to fill up space... anyway, i have a small request :

APPEALING FOR FREE MAKE OVER FOR MY BLOG!

heez...i realised my link alignments are out already...help!

2005-07-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

One man come in the name of love
One man come and go
One man come, he to justify
One man to overthrow

In the name of love
One more in the name of love
In the name of love
One more in the name of love

One man come on a barbed wire fence
One man he resist
One man washed on an empty beach
One man betrayed with a kiss

Early morning, april four
Shot rings out in the memphis sky
Free at last, they took your life
They could not take your pride

All these done in the name of LOVE...thank You Jesus...

2005-07-03T03:34:00.000+08:00

Delta Goodrem - I can sing a rainbow
Red and yellow and pink and green,
Purple and orange and blue,
I can sing a rainbow,
Sing a rainbow,
Sing a rainbow too!
Listen to your eyes,
Listen to your heart,
And sing everything you feel,
I can sing a rainbow,
Sing a rainbow,
Sing a rainbow too

If such a girl with such heart-melting, heart-wrenching, soulful voice sings to me ah....fwah, i think i will just literally fall on my knees...Delta Goodrem's voice ah, really buey ta han sial....I love it!!

Who will be the unique and God-sent one who will sing me a rainbow too?

Who will be the SunShine who will sing me a Rainbow after my stormy entourage...

2005-06-22T12:30:00.000+08:00

"Remnants of my Insipient Past"
Steady breathing, softly moving
Over and over, tossing and turning
Gripping me tightly, displacing my thoughts
Father! Take them to captivity!
I'm not giving it, throwing the towel
I want to give it all in, give it all up
Pressing on toward the mark, to goal, the prize
Which He has called me heavenward in Christ
Gouging my eyes out if they cause me to sin
Cutting off my hands if they lead me to hell
Change my heart, I don't want to feel anymore
Surrendering to serenity
Taking refuge under my great High Priest
Perfect peace gives harmony
Transfiguration from a wretch to saintly advocate
Grace and mercy, they lift me up
These moments of grace, I give praise
Measure me not by the palm of Your right Hand
But forget not your faihtfulness and compassion
A broken ware I am, hole-ly
Nothing can ever fill me to the brim and sustain it
Therefore cast me into His eternity
Flood me with His love.

2005-06-15T10:57:00.000+08:00

"We're So Far Away"

Remembering, everything,
About my world and when you came.
Wondering the change you’d bring,
Means nothing else would be the same.

Did you know what you were doing, did you know?
Did you know how you would move me?
Well, I don’t really think so.
But the night came down and swept us away.
And the stars they seemed,
To paint the most elaborate scene to date.

How could we know, that song, this show?
We'd learn so much about ourselves.
From Toledo to Tokyo,
The words were scribed on every page,
And now there’s books up on our shelves.

Did you know how you would move us, did you know?
When the lights first came upon us,
And we saw The Everglow.
And the moment's magic swept us away.
And the young mans dream was almost seen so plain.

When was the night
That showed us the sign?
Revealed in the sky to leave all behind.
But where to begin?
Throwing caution to the wind,
We reached for the stars, everything was now ours.

Did you know how you would move me, did you know?
Did you know how you would move me?
Well, I don’t even think so.
But the moment's magic swept us away.
And it’s so close, but we’re so far away.
It’s so close, but we’re so far away.

2005-05-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

Jedi Code
There is no emotion, there is peace
There is no ignorance, there is knowledge
There is no passion, there is serenity
There is no death, there is the Force

Sith Code
There is no peace, there is anger
There is no fear, there is power
There is no death, there is immortality
There is no weakness, there is the Dark Side

2005-05-11T17:22:00.000+08:00

hey ppl, something to inspire and encourage like-minded christians on the same entourage.

http://www.nytimes.com/2005/05/10/arts/music/10chri.html

2005-04-29T13:51:00.001+08:00

CHONG YOU BING...this stuff is shiokness max!

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2005-04-29T13:51:00.000+08:00

THE JI PAH WHICH I MISS!!!

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2005-04-29T13:45:00.000+08:00

Who's gonna stop me from my CHONG YOU BING and JI PAH?!

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2005-04-29T13:44:00.001+08:00

PRESENTING ZE LEGEND HIMSELF.

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2005-04-29T13:44:00.000+08:00

ZE LEZENDARY NINJA VAN!

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2005-04-29T13:43:00.000+08:00

Yes...This is what kept me alive, kicking and gaining the extra.

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2005-04-29T13:41:00.000+08:00

The Ancient...

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2005-04-29T13:38:00.000+08:00

The Reason is You...Guard's Admin need a lot of working upon...

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2005-04-29T13:37:00.000+08:00

My Bunker

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2005-04-29T13:36:00.001+08:00

Inside the Ops Room(A place where i spent most of my time)

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2005-04-29T13:36:00.000+08:00

The Gate To SAI KANG(OPS ROOM EXT)

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2005-04-29T13:34:00.000+08:00

My Living Area aka Chicken Coop

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2005-04-29T13:33:00.000+08:00

My Living Corner(Which is like one for a coolie)

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2005-04-29T13:32:00.000+08:00

My Taiwan ID(Back)

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2005-04-29T13:31:00.000+08:00

My Taiwan ID(Front)

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2005-04-29T12:36:00.000+08:00

hello to all reading this.I'm safely back in Singapore since thursday 0230. However, I will be heading down to cool KL today (290405). I will be going down with the Sky In Euphoria boys for their gig there. I'll be there as a roadie as well as mech gals!heez....I will be taking more photos to post up!I haven had the chance to compile all the photos i took on my own cam and my frens cam for the taiwan trip, will do that ASAP. Anyway, that's all frm me. Hope to hang out with mroe ppl!msg me!

2005-04-17T18:40:00.000+08:00

Saying HI from Taiwan, Kao Xiong, Heng Chun, Ren Shou Camp. Currently using the internet from this 'coin-operated' internet cafe. Anyway, there are seriously many small and little stuffs that God has been helping me. Simple things like making the photocopier works and etc...Just pray that I won't die of boredom while the rest are away and the legendary ninja van won't stop coming to the camp!!!heez...took quite a bit of photos...shall post them up when i reached Singapore. Cheerios Guys!!!missing everyone back in S'pore!!!

Sorry if this is a standard msg, not enuff coin to buy time literally....

Ji Pa RoX!!!

2005-03-20T00:56:00.000+08:00

"Criticism As Inspiration"
I saw in your bedroom, the drawers had been emptied.
Looking for answers but you won't admit it now.
You don't need a reason, that's what you tell me but I still don't buy it.
You drink yourself silly night after night.
It makes me feel so good to always tell you when you're wrong.
The big man that I am to always have to put you down, put you down.
Then there's your girlfriend, she opens her legs and gives your life meaning.
Is that what you love her for?
The angel is always looking down, he's perfect without frown, the bully always wins.
It makes me feel so good to always tell you when you're wrong.
The big man that I am to always have to put you down, put you down.
It makes me feel so good to always tell you when you're wrong.
The big man that I am to always have to put you down.
It makes we look so good to always put you in your place.
I can write it in a song but never say it to your face, to your face.

2005-03-05T01:52:00.000+08:00

Hopefully i can get this bike?

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2005-03-05T01:49:00.000+08:00

Phew....manage to stop by and update a little....

Anyway guys, I will be heading down to Taiwan for Ex HIGHNOON from 110405 to 280405...so i wun be available during this period of time..I know you guys will miss me badly...heez....

2005-02-19T02:56:00.000+08:00

Hello all you beautiful creation of God! I have 7 pointers to share regarding dating which I have adopted from the book "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" by Joshua Harris.

The under mentioned 7 pointers are what I get from reading Chap 3 of "I Kissed Dating Goodbye". Perhaps you can relate to them(I know I can...).

Note: Dating in itself is not biblically wrong. There is nothing wrong about dating in itself and "dating in and of itself isn't the cause of the problems we see in relationships". The root of the problems in dating is the wrong attitudes and values brought in by the sinful and selfish people. Furthermore, dating is developed "out of a culture that celebrates self-centeredness and immorality. With the fact that dating can encourage the sinful desires of our hearts, all these challenged me to stop dating;which is what I have decided. With all these issues surrounding dating, it's really not that hard to decide whether to trust God to provide for me or to 'search' for one myself. I believe in trusting God to provide, as in He will impress on me this particular girl, and He will also do the same for that girl. Then in His timing, we somehow meet and get together knowing that He has been preparing us for each other. That will be the sweetest thing on earth!

7 Defects of Dating

1)Dating Tends To Skip The Friendship Stage Of A Relationship.

-One on one dating has the tendency to move a guy and girl beyond friendship and toward romance too quickly.

-In friendship, it's their mutual interest that moves them together without romantic expectation. In dating, romantic attraction is often the cornerstone of the relationship.

-Intimacy without commitment is defrauding and intimacy without friendship is superficial.

2)Dating Often Mistakes A Physical Relationship For Love.

-Early introduction of physical affection into the relationship adds confusion to it as both will find it hard to remain objective. "Whenever you try to evaluate the merits of the relationship, you'll immediately picture the intimacy and passion of the physical relationship".

-Many couples gauge the seriousness of their relationship by the level of their physical involvement as this is one way to "distinguish their special relationship through hand-holding and kissing". This is the way many couples express concretely to each other that they are both unique and special to each other.

-Physical involvement can make two people feel close. However, if they really examined the focus of their dating relationships, all they have in common is lust.

3)Dating Often Isolates A Couple From Other Vital Relationships.

-Defination of DATING: Dating is about two peopl focusing on each other.

-In a relationship where both are moving towards marriage, giving the relationship primary attention is not wrong as it 's important to make a wise choice to know the person well. But even in serious relationship, it's not wise to isolate yourself from others.

-If we make our decisions about life solely on the influence of one relationship, we'll probably make poor judgement as we lose perspective.

-Exclusive attention is so often expected in dating relationships and this has a tendency to isolate them from friends who love them most, family members who know them best, and sadly, even God, whose will far exceeds any romantic interest.

4)Dating Can Distract Young Adult From Their Primary Responsibility Of Preparing For The Future.

-Maintaining a relationship takes a lot of time and energy.

-Dating may help you practice bring a good boyfriend or girlfriend, but are these the skills we need for marriage? Even if you're going out with the person you will one day marry, a preoccupation with being the PERFECT boyfriend or girlfriend now can actually hinder you from being the future husband or wife that person will one day need.8

5)Dating Can Cause Discontentment With God's Gift Of Singleness.

-God gives us singleness - a season of our lives unmatched in its boundless opportunities for growth, learning and service.

-However, we view it as a chance to get bogged down in finding and keeping boyfriends or girlfriends.

-Singleness is a freedom and recreational dating causes dissatisfaction as it encourages a wrong use of this freedom.

-Instead of enjoying the unique qualities of singleness, dating causes people to focus on what they don't have!

6)Dating Can Create An Artificial Environment For Evaluating Another Person's Character.

-Dating does not require a person to accurately portray his or her positive and negative characteristics..

-Futhermore, being fun on a date doesn't say anything about a person's character or ability to be a good husband or wife.

-Two people weighing the possibility of marriage need to make sure that they don't interact only within the fun, romantic setting of dating as their priority shouldn't be to get away from real life but they need is a strong dose of objective reality.

7)Dating Often Becomes An End In Itself.

-Singles who grow accustomed to dating limbo often find it difficult to leave as it's so comfortable.

-They are able to experience the emotional, and sadly, even physical privileges of marriage.

-Many people find little or no motivation for committing themselves for marriage.

In the end, you may choose to agree with whatever I've mentioned or you may choose to think this is some Christian Dating bullshit. I shall not debate with you regarding my faith in Jesus Christ.

"But the natural man does not receive the things of the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him; nor can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned."
1 Cor 2:14

2005-02-14T12:47:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, My band(OA) will be playing at Sentosa, Siloso Beach, at or around 1200hrs for a SMU event. Do come down and support support okie?! I promise a kiss if you come up to me and get it!heez...*wink*

Anyway, an update of myself. The coming 1mth of riding the vespa has been a really big hassle, with the bike going in and out of the workshop. Breaking down half way during CTE is not fun definately and pushing the bike instead of it 'pushing' you is also not cool. Sent it for servicing again on friday nite cos it gave up on me half way during my en route to Plaza Singapura; Not nice. Seems like the problems are overwhelming the glam factor. I'm going down to collect my bike later and discuss with the uncle if I can trade in my vespa for a brand new one instead. Before I even leave my hse with my bike, I will be already perspiring like mad due to kick starting the bike. This bike has broken my confidence in it or even the shop. I'm afraid to ride as I'm afraid that it may break down half way during my journey again.

To make things lagi worse, I smashed my dad's rear windscreen yesteday while I was parking at Glenn's hse multi story carpark. The design of the carpark really suck big time. The ceiling has this block of cement sticking out of no where and before I can reverse my van into a safe distance inside, the block stuck right through my windscreen. It certainly is not a gd day for me... Thank God my dad's response is the exact opp of what everyone would expect, he merely reminded me to be more careful while reversing during parking.

2005-02-10T01:01:00.000+08:00

See the pyramids along the nile
Watch the sunrise from a tropic isle
Just remember darling all the while
You belong to me

See the market place in old Algiers
Send me photographes and souvenirs
Just remember when a dream appears
You belong to me

I'd be so alone without you
Maybe you'd be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember 'til you're home again
You belong to me

2005-01-29T23:56:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys, i dun have a digital cam with me. Therefore can't show you my vespa...heez....soon soon i promise!

2005-01-21T15:25:00.000+08:00

colours scheme is this...

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2005-01-21T04:45:00.000+08:00

the shape is somewhat like tt but the colour scheme is similar to my earlier post. my mirrors will be small chromed mirrors, I wun be placing the extra tire and my wheel design is more like the earlier post one.Notice tt the head is round and the earlier one is square.

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2005-01-21T04:19:00.000+08:00

gd book...

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2005-01-21T04:03:00.000+08:00

Hur Hur Hur...
I took my Class 2B TP practical test yesterday morning (200105) and passed it!!heez...i really wanna thank God for it!This was my second attempt liaoz...Anyway, i know tt my loved ones ard me are pretty concerned cos riding is always not as safe and reliable compared to driving. However, I need the transport quite badly. Firstly is becos it's very troublesome for my dad to keep picking me up frm camp to COOS for home grp every wednesday. He's also quite supportive as to me riding to home grp. Getting to cell grp is my main concern as this is like one of the only time where i get to spend some time with everyone in SE. I really miss everyone and I mean everyone so much sial...Secondly, it's for my personal transport. This is more of a want than a need I have to confess. I have always wanted to ride a vespa, it's like one of the things I must do.heez...However, before the test, I really gave up my right whether I would get the license to Him. I told God tt if He isn't please tt I will be riding, please FAIL ME. I was all ready to give up riding, the $500 for the lessons. Well, the license is a testimony for me as it was really not easy to pass. The percentage of passing is like less than 47%...So i really thank God for allowing me to pass...hur hur hur...

Anyway, besides passing, OA also jammed at Beat Merchants from 0000hrs - 0200hrs...had some pretty interesting stuffs tt we're wrking on...hopefully we can move on from the rawness of our songs to something more steady...Our concept for our new songs: I Kissed Dating Goodbye.

I'm not an anti-dating freak, but I jus wan to question those ppl who date becos they wanna 'try out' so tt they know who's the best for them. I personally agree to pretty much what the author of the book "I Kissed Dating Goodbye", Joshua Harris, said regarding short term relationships and how it will affect you and your future spouse...Are you able to love the opposite sex the way God loves them first?this book is so hurst...I LIKE!!!

"...Intimacy is the result of commitment..." Joshua Harris, author of "I Kissed Dating Goodbye.

2005-01-10T16:20:00.000+08:00

This song is about letting go;lover,friend...

Man plans, God decides...

U2 - Kite
SomethingIs about to give
I can feel it coming
I think I know what it means
I'm not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to live
And when I'm flat on my back
I hope to feel like I did

And hardness
It sets in
You need some protection
The thinner the skin

I want you to know
That you don't need me anymore
I want you to know
You don't need anyone
Or anything at all

Who's to say where the wind will take you
Who's to say what it is will break you
I don't know
Which way the wind will blow
Who's to know when the time has come around
Don't want to see you cry
I know that this is not goodbye

It's summer, I can taste the salty sea
There's a kite blowing out of control on the breeze
I wonder what's gonna happen to you
You wonder what has happened to me

I'm a man
I'm not a child
A man who sees
The shadow behind your eyes

Who's to say where the wind will take you
Who's to say what it is will break you
I don't know
Where the wind will blow
Who's to know when the time has come around
I don't want to see you cry
I know that this is not goodbye

Did I waste it
Not so much I couldn't taste it
Life should be fragrant
Rooftop to the basement
The last of the rocks stars
When hip hop drove the big cars
In the time when new media
Was the big idea
That was the big idea

2004-12-19T18:36:00.000+08:00

heez...time to update u guys again.

I've been posted out from NDP Team aka 3 DIV ARTY HQ to HQ 2SIB.

Changes:
01)I'm officially a stay in personnel.
02)I dunno how am i going to go to cell grp on wednesday
03)I can book out everyday but mus be back by 2359hr.
04)It's no longer Yio Chu Kang but Mandai Hill(damn near zoo)
05)I can no longer access internet everynite to check my mail.
06)It's hard to jam with OA without a transport.
07)I'm under a gd boss.
08)My incoming boss plays guitar...*grin*
09)Another of my officer plays in a band, and we have common interests;music!
10)I'm starting to enjoy what i'm doing becos it's quite monotonous!Stability is the word!

I really thank God for giving me this posting.Heez...the only down side is tt i have to stay in...but besides tt, everything is way better. From the cook house food, to the bunk!

Prayer pointers:
01)I don't become an alcoholic becos duty free beer is cheap.
02)I don't become a smoker becos the rest of them smoke.
03)Let me be a positive influence to the rest, salt and light.
04)Standing firm in my faith,trusting tt He knows what's best for me.
05)Battling loneliness.Heez...can get quite emo inside one...
06)Gd relationship with my boss and collegues.
07)Able to learn the ropes from my upper study fast.
08)Health.
09)Pass my Class 2B license so that I can ride in and out of camp!
10)Constant quiet time like i used to during my Tekong times.

"You don't know the purpose of living until you've found the reason worth dying for."
Purpose Driven Life

2004-12-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

Life is so fragile. In a blink of the eye, we're back to dust...

2004-11-24T15:13:00.001+08:00

Ladies and Gentlemen! Sonic Edge service is just around the corner!

This is our last Sonic Edge service for the year 2004, before we take a little breather and resume sometime in 2005.

Happening: Date: 27th Nov (THIS sat)
Doors open at: 7pm
Location: Magic Box, Touch Community Theatre 3615 Jalan Bukit Merah (S)159461

[+]Come and be entertained by the new sounds of One Authority! One Authority is comprised of like minded musicians wanting to make a difference in the world today through music. With the strong desire to reach out to people, one authority crafts their music based on life experiences and their individual muse, striving to breathe hope and purpose to inspire and comfort this broken generation. One authority plays their own brand of indie alternative rock, influenced by the likes of Our Lady Peace, Muse, U2, Coldplay, Incubus and The Smashing Pumpkins.

[+]Following that, be ministered and thrilled with the ever- evolving, spirit-led, Art Worship! Who says you need a band and some singers to worship? You can praise and worship God in so many different and creative ways, and Art Worship does just that. ART WORSHIP PIECE Title: Lost Warriors "hear his call" Duration: 30 - 40mins Synopsis: Are we lost and can't be found OR we are found but blinded by the World's daily activities. God has found and called us to be united as one body, we should stand together and be his Warrior!

[+]Following which, worship will be led by the Sonic Edge Band, fresh out of their gruelling Australian Mission Tour.. and guaranteed to be full of energy, spirit and zeal to tear the house down with the presence of the Lord. So, what are you waiting for? Old friends, new friends, come down to this year's final Sonic Edge service! All God! All Glory, All worship!

2004-11-24T15:13:00.000+08:00

Must come support okie?!

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2004-11-23T07:51:00.000+08:00

Hurst....not nice...my camp pass dropped while I was hitching a ride on my fren's bike to work...

2004-11-22T14:08:00.000+08:00

Currently sitted in front of the computer, taking a breather from my work. Listening to myself to prepare for this Sat's SE service. Well, God really did answer my prayer; recevied a new found strength and courage to slug through. Struggling between whether or not to drink coffee...maybe later...

So looking forward to 1730hrs. This is like a relief for me. NS work to me will only be a call of duty, not really very high on my priority list. Just here to perform/function. I'm developing relationship with 2 of my branchmates, and invited one of them to come to SE this sat to support me. He's the closest guy that I get to work with in the NDP branch. I have been speaking to him about God, Jesus Christ, Godly-values and etc. He seems quite receptive towards them, which is a gd thing. Heez... He's a Confusionist(i always joke with him, you very confusioning ah...) I really thank God for using me to reach out to him and even opening up doors for me to invite him to SE. Truly hope he will be open to Jesus Christ this Sat. I pray that God will do His work in him and give him the unique touch. I believe reaching out to him, and seeing him turn back to Christ is one major motivation for me to come back to work bah...Continue praying that I can be the light and salt of this branch in the midst of all the pornography and etc...

2004-11-16T17:46:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey,
Just came back from KL yesterday afternoon. I was supposed to meet Fannesa at 1400hrs and I'm supposed to be back by 1300hrs. The bus driver drove recklessly through the petrol kiosk, causing the right rear wheel to puncture. This caused a delay of about an hour and a half. This caused me to reach Outram MRT at 1530hr. Felt so bad for having Fannesa to wait for me for an hour and a half. I don't like to be waited upon and I certainly hate to be late. Well, thank God she did waited for me. Heez...

The trip over at KL was awesome. Factors that really thrilled our KL trip, 1)We didn't make any prior arrangment for our accomodations and 2)We only got our bus tickets one day before the trip, how interesting! Heez... Thank God, we managed to get a relatively budget hotel room at the rate of RM120/night and the best part is that we're right smack in the center of town area where shopping malls like Sungei Wang, Plaza Loy Yatt, Lot 10, Berjaya Times Square were. Our closest KL Monorail Station is Bukit Bintang. We stayed at Cardogan Hotel by the way. Heez... quite a nice place. We reached KL on Saturday morning at about 0400hrs, walked around the area in search for hotels for a while before settling for that one. We slept for a while and woke up at about 1100hrs.

The agenda for the first day was to get bus tickets back home first. We walked to Puduraya Bus Terminal to get our tix. Next, whisked back to Plaza Loy Yatt to have our brunch and to conquer Berjaya Times Square, Sungei Wang and Plaza Loy Yatt. Our last destination for that day was Midvalley Megamall. I suggested to take public transport such as monorail and LRT to Megamall. It's cool because we had to walk past a real kampung and a raiway track before making it to Megamall. Watched Taxi, had lots of donuts from Dunkin Donuts.Muahahaa...

On Sunday itself, we headed down to KLCC, same, via public transport and also a short walk(through a drizzle,sickening). After KLCC, we took another ride on the LRT to Chinatown. Hhehehe...Finally, met up with Keng, Issac, Isabel, her brother, Deborah and Justin (Her Reverie). Heez... Met them at this food centre at Kuchai Entrepenuar Park. Chatted with them for a while before heading down to NATHANS!!heez...but only Isabel joined us as the rest had something on the next day. I really appreciate Isabel for driving us to and fro, heez...thanks girl! Ate to our hearts' content before giving up. As the signboard slowly fade away with the distance, I start to think about when will I come back to this great place to hang out with these great and wonderfully lovely people of KL (not to mention the food...hee hee).

Currently stuck in camp, in OT mode. Waiting for my officer don't know for what important reason. It better be urgent... Today kenna *bua again (*bua - literal meaning is apply upon, usually butter / metaphoric meaning is kenna shits). Kenna handed down with more duties, responsiblities and etc. I really need God to carry on man...Each day I walk in with the thought of leaving as my motivation. I don't enjoy what I'm doing - the schedular. And right now I had to let my dad wait for me cause my officer is not even back yet. Hurst... do pray for me... I'm really getting sick of this vocation, feel like requesting to be transferred out of this NDP team to a normal branch. GOD HELP ME!!!!!

2004-11-12T20:29:00.000+08:00

Hey all,
I'm posting for the last time before I leave for KL tonight!heez...so excited...going back to KL again...Heez...Anyway, I promise to take some nice pics and post it up once I'm back...See you all soon!Miss you all!!!*wink*

2004-11-09T20:12:00.000+08:00

My New Guitar...Wuuu.....

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2004-10-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

Crazy Shoots(4)

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2004-10-28T23:41:00.001+08:00

Crazy Shoots(3)

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2004-10-28T23:41:00.000+08:00

Crazy Shoots(2)

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2004-10-28T23:40:00.000+08:00

Crazy Shoots(1)

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2004-10-27T14:01:00.000+08:00

WishList:
1)Telecaster Humbucker Bridge with a PAF
2)Ibanez Tonelok PM7
3)DOD Gonkulator / BOSS DS-1(mod) / Marshall Shredmaster

Movies I want to catch:
1)Before Sunset
2)Door in the floor
3)The Ladykillers
4)The Motorcycle Diaries

Jus came back from doing some really crazy bollywood-cliche thingy for some video...hurst...Now I'm back to my 3x3 cubicle,argh....i'm not made for this office life...I wanna break free...

2004-10-27T10:14:00.000+08:00

Sailing through time seamlessly
The sun bakes me, browning me
Shades over my eyes, filtered sight
Let me no longer view this world
Not with my eyes, but by His sight.

Open to judgemental crictism
I stay defenceless, shoot me
Refusal to hold up my shield
Choosing to let them come

On my own, holding on
Relentless struggles through my day
Seemingly easier as each day pass
Focus on eternity, forsake temperamentality

20 more Communions with My Lord
And I'm out of this trial
Grant me the strength, courage, love
Give me the hope to carry on

"This life is a preparation for the eternity. Focus on eternal values, forsake your temperamental values. Exchange your heart for His Heart." - EndBegin

2004-10-20T07:56:00.000+08:00

*phew...I managed to finish reading part one of the book yesterday. I think I will read every chapter twice to get more geez out of each chapters.

Conclusions which struck near heartland:
-We're spiritual being OPERATING out of a physical being
-Most of our prayers are anthropocentric(self-centred) instead of theocentric(God-centered)
-Do we really mean by "It's all about Jesus" or "Jesus, You're in charge MOST OF THE TIME, but there are some parts I don't want you to get involved"

"Altar of Pragmatism is killing the Spiritual Theologies." - EndBegin

2004-10-15T15:47:00.000+08:00

Heez...have decided to pen some of my reading reflections down. Reflections allow you to think and take a pro-active role in reading. Anyway, the book I'm reading is titled "Growing Deep in God - Integrating Theology and Prayer" by Edmund Chan. This book is given to me by the ever gracious John C. Heez... I've learnt a lot through observing John C. The examples he set for me has truly sipped deep into my belief system. The way he handled circumstances and etc. I guess I've learnt more from John C than from Glenn is because of my work involvement in WMUM. I get to interact with John C more than anyone else in the leadership. Anyway, I really thank John C for all the lessons in life he's passed on to me as a Leader,Organiser,soon-to-be-Father,Husband,Superior,Brother,Friend and Disciple of Christ. Thanks for this great book John, it really hits me from a different perspective. Not what I perceived as a book of formula but a book of correcting wrong beliefs abt prayer, significance of prayer...

I'll try to blog every 3 chapters so that I have time to reflect upon what I've read so that my reading won't be a motion, but a time of reflection. Reflections that bring upon actions, actions that cultivate habits, habits that develops into character.

Part 1, Chapter 1: The God of the How Much More.
This opening chapter was really a spiritual shower for me. It prepares me, challenges my inner belief system, shakes my very basic foundation in Christ. I love it! The one thing that struck me the most was that subconciously, I have believed that praying is like twisting the arm of God. EC(abb. for Edmund Chan) used Luke 11 to teach the apostles on prayers. The thing that convicted me was when EC talked abt the parable of the friend who has nothing but came to approach his neighbour for some bread (Lk 11:5-8). EC stated that many of us didn't realise the desperation of the man who is asking his neighbour,supposed friend, for some loaves of bread. EC gave 3 pointers when reviewing NT parables: 1)Setting, 2)Story, 3)Significance. The setting of this parable is one of that the culture back in those days, if you didn't provide hospitality and food to your friends who journeyed to your house, it is of utmost shame. With this desperation in mind, I've gained a deeper understanding of the background of the parable. As for the story, it's talking about a friend who journeyed long to Mr A's hse. Mr A realised that he has NOTHING TO OFFER. In desperation, went to his neighbour aka friend, Mr B, for some food. Mr B and his family are already aslp and Mr B is RELUCTANT to wake up to open the door and pass Mr A food. However, Mr A persisted and finally, Mr B gave in. We always perceive, speaking on behalf of myself, that the significance of this parable is persistancy. It is correct but theologically inadequate. With a belief like this, we subconciously seconded to the fact that God is always reluctant to bless us and He wants us to be persistant and bug Him before He releases His blessing. For me, I always thought this to be true. Until EC expounded on the 2nd part of the parable. Continue reading on from Lk 11:8, we'll realise that the Jesus is actually trying to tell us that God is NOT like Mr B who is aslp, reluctant to bless us, in fact, God is so much of the opposite. As EC states it, our Father is a God of "HOW MUCH MORE". I like one of EC's quote from E. Stanley Jones "Prayer is not overcoming God's reluctance; it is cooperating with His highest willingness. I was totally blown away!

My wrong beliefs: God will only bless us when we bug Him. He's reluctant to bless us.
Big words learnt: Jewish Pedagogy of Contrast.

Part 1, Chapter 2: The Significance of Prayer
This is one chapter which hursts me to the core! The one quote which really would give a major check on ourselves as leaders in Christ is this "A Spiritual Leader who is NOT PRAYING has ABDICATED his primary job description from God. Prayer cannot be divorced from spiritual leadership." Through this, I came up with an equation of my own: Time spent in prayers = Spiritual leadership/authority. As EC stated "When we work, we work. When we pray, God works."

I'll stop here for now until i get access to com again. Work ending liaoz...heez...

2004-10-12T07:53:00.000+08:00

Wind rustles, stirs, dries
Leaves dance without partner
Swinging left, left, right
With the wind as the lead

"Up flow, down beat" cycle
Falling from its vertice
Gracefully gliding, sailing
Where will it land?

Swept in the emotional vortex
Struggle to break through
He gave me His hand
And I gave Him my contrite

2004-10-06T08:55:00.000+08:00

well,it's been done...The decision is finalised...We had a good chat last night to round things up and tie up all those loose ends. I too managed to open up more to her last night. We've decided to take a clean break as of 051004. This day marks the end of our 1yr3mths14days of our relationship. I believe my breakup is the best breakup i've ever personally witnessed;we broke up in love,in love for God. The main reasons were these 1)Extreme Parental Approval and 2)My emotional trait.

Well, shan't comment much about point no. (1). I shall further comment on (2) as of what have been conveyed to Valerie. To cut things short, it's no one's fault that she understood me tt way. She thought I was this super emotionally-overwhelmed guy but I told her tt I'm only like tt to her. I probed her a qns "Have you ever wondered how come I'm not laughing when i'm ard you. Instead, most of the time I seemed deep in thought, solemn, not smiling?" She misread these body languages of mine as I'm emotional. I dun blame her. I would to if I were to be in her shoes. However, the truth is that I have been pondering abt things. There are 2 things I realised in the initial stage of our relationship, 1)She doesn't open up much to me, 2)She too no longer laughs as much with me than with her frens. It somehow seemed that by taking our frenship deeper, we've lost the elements of frenship in tt process. I used to tease her and disturb her and vice versa. But all these little actions ceased after we got together. Once again, I would protect Valerie's name by saying this, she's really under great pressure from her parents. She's someone who really obeyed her parents from young. And i'm like the 'baddy' who led her to 'oppose'. Her love for me and her parents stretched her. I'm sorry for stretching her tt way. My emotional out breaks were all the results of the snowballed issues i should have raised in the initial stages of our relationship. These are 2 regrets I have in the relationship; 1)I know the issues ,their effects and I didn't do anything abt it fearing that I would lose her in the process of sorting out these issues. 2)My unintenional emotional snare that estrangled her.

As for the major reason for our break up;her parents. I finally know why her parents didn;t like me. One very simple reason that ALSO snowballed due to the adding on of "TRUTHS" from others. Their impression of me was totally gone. At first, I chose to ignore. But i realised that I can;t always hide behind Valerie's back and let her defend our relationship,me alone. That was when i've decided to stand up for the truth. i promised myself to at least write a letter to her parents. Her parents didn;t like me as they said that I always gave them a 'black-face' whenever I see them or greet them. Which is not the case, most of the time, in fact, everytime when I see her parent(s), i ger very nervous. It doesn't help knowing that they dun really like me. That added on to my stress. When i'm stressed up, I can't coordinate my speech and my facial expression well. Everytime before goign up to greet her parents, I would have to actually do a rehearsal in my head before saying it out. I was so nervous til I can;t smile and it seemed that my smile is very fake. I discovered quite long ago that I have 2 expressions, either i'm smiling or i'm not. So when i dun smile, it seems as though i'm feeling negative. Perhaps tt's why they misread me as I dun like them, I dun even give 2cents worth of respect to them.

I believe this is part of God's will of moulding Val and I. Both of us have made it very clear for this break. Both of us agreed that it needs to be a "hot-butter-knife-going-through-butter" clean. I will still write a letter to apologise to her parents, and explain to them my negative expressions. I would also include how the relationship has truly edified me in the Spirit. Though we might never be together again. I still dun like the idea of someone having a negative impression of me. Although I can't change everyone's point of view abt me, I'll do my best to change those I can.

"Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the thing I can and the wisdom to know the difference."

Let me end off this post with a prayer.
Heavenly Father,
I thank you for watching over both of us over this period of 1yr4mths. I thank you for crossing Val's path with mine. Thank you Lord for making my dream come true. As You've said, seek Ye Kingdom first and the rest shall be added unto thee. I trust Lord in Your wisdom. I pray that by obeying Your will, You will be happy and glorifed. I pray dear Father that You continue to watch over both of us as we have decided to take a split in our walks in life. I pray Lord that You reveal to us Your Will for our lives. I thank You Lord for being for gentle with both of us. Obedience beats sacrifice. Lord, I choose to obey and walk Your path. Lord, there is nothing I can offer to you now but my broken heart. I offer up to you my broken heart as a worship onto You. I pray You continue to stretch out Your loving hands over Valerie and continue to restore my frenship with her. Jesus, I pray that You reveal Yourself to her when she has no one to turn to,drown her with Your loving pressence. Let her know that You are always watching over her. Bless Your Name, the God of Isreal, great and mighty is Your name. Blessed is He who redeemed us from the devil and blessed is He who has once again comforted those brokenhearted. I commit my whole being as a living sacrifice to You.
In Jesus's name I pray,
Amen...

"To God be the Glory forever and ever for He is near those who are broken in the Spirit..."

2004-10-01T08:08:00.000+08:00

Argh....HELP!!!!I'm constantly being bombarded by CHINESE/CANTO POP!!! Hurst...losing my sanity...Trying to get a good guitar riff for OA's song;Watching Over You. The chinese/canto pop doesn't seemed to be helping...

Anyway, was looking and surfing through amplifier's webby, likes of Vox, Matchless, Orange, Matamp. Maybe after this, I shall look into THD amp. I have been reading up on tube amp schematics category,how they caterogrise power amps. I only know of MKII and MKIII. There's a few amps which I would want in my dream rig.

They are:
1)Vox AC30 http://www.voxamps.co.uk/products/ac30/ac30hw.htm
2)Matchless DC30 http://www.matchlessamplifiers.com/match23_c30.html#
3)Orange AD50 http://users.pandora.be/geertjacobs/orange_page.htm
3)Roland JC120
4)Fender Twin Reverb

Heze...another new toy tt i've discovered --> Electrix Filter Factory http://www.electrixpro.com/products/older.html#

so fun...

2004-09-30T07:36:00.000+08:00

Hurst...last night, when i jus slipped into slumber. Jus as my dream started, there was this darkness heading towards me in my dream,that was all I can remember in that dream. The setting seems to be in a classroom. As that darkness approaches me, I felt the oppression and the phyical discomfort. The next thing I know, I feel suffocated and I just awaken...literally like the movie kind,my eyes were closed, the next moment, they were wide open! Now sitting in my office, so lack of slp; as if I have been having enough already.

Today's 300904, it's been 1mth and 8days. Thoughts gather in my head...

Wild flowers that grow by the road
Will they ever be appreciated?
Will they ever be noticed?

Trampled and stamped upon
Have they ever yielded to this life?
Standing strong, growing firm

Resting on beds of thorns
Knowing it'ld only bring pain
Is there any gain without pain

We spat, despised, cruxified
The Great Messiah
He struggled to none

The holes in his palms
Brought peace to me
What a perfect peace

Love kissed hatred goodbye
Mercy gave justice a big hug
Laws fulfiled, character revealed

2004-09-23T16:41:00.000+08:00

I was blog-jumping and came across this very "INTERESTING BLOG POST". Something that trutly speaks to life!!!Hahaha....Pls,pass this on!

::Dear [name of a boy],

it has come to my attention that you have been selected as a potential student of ActCoolSchool(Int). We are indeed pleased to welcome you to our big family. However, there are a few improvements that have to be made for you to be qualified to be one of us.

Firstly, your physical appearance needs alteration. According to our school's tradition, our attire includes:

1. spiked hair
2. pants worn on the hips
3. almost completely hidden socks
4. shirts not tucked in properly etc.

Furthermore, you must have bushy eyebrows and tan skin to be eligible. Thus, we would appeal that you make this changes ASAP.

Secondly, other than outward appearance, what goes on inside is crucial as well. We adhere struictly to our 3 acts: Act Cool, Act Attitude and Act Poser, stressing on poser-ism as the basis of our image.

Act cool: All ActCoolSchool(Int) students are required to be adept in pretending to be cool in the way bimbos will fall for the trick, even though it is obviously not the proper definition of "cool". We do not want our students to be cool but to ACT cool. This will include mannerisms like acting nonchalant and pompous that will create the false impression that ActCoolSchool(Int) guys are indeed very desirable and good looking.

Act attitude: Due to the fact that bimbos absolutely love attitudal guys, we emphasise strongly on pretending to have attitude in our boys. You will hence have to act like a very bad person when you are in fact an insecure and deprived person.

Act poser: AS this is the trademark of our school, it will require no further explanation.

To adhere to our school's motto "The best is yet to be", we require you to stop getting good results in school especially in the area of literature, as this opposes our motto. You will hence need to go out more with bimbos, have fun, screw around and be less concerned with your studies.

Your Chinese grades need to be extremely poor and you will have to hate it a lot. In other words, you must forget all your roots and be a perfect banana. You are also required to be rich to avoid being ostracised and looked down upon in our school. More emphasis will also be put on sports to create the false impression that ActCoolSchool(Int) guys are all rounders.

We look forward to your joining our huge ActCoolSchool(Int) family and we certainly do believe you have the potential, judging by your bimbo attracting qualities prevalent in all our students. We believe that with more posing, despising Chinese and acting, you can definitely be an outstanding representation of ActCoolSchool(Int).

yours sincerely,
Principal
ActCoolSchool(Int)

2004-09-21T22:07:00.000+08:00

Was very slpy when i was typing the previous post,i literally was dragging myself,forcing my eyes to open up (as if they weren't small enough) and every breathe is such a chore.

right now listening to OA,now is actually listening to Massive Attack...hahaha...admiring the guitar works of MA....hahaha....Anyway, jus realised tt we're quite happening thru the MD recording we've done at Wee Lee (Serangoon)...hahaha...hmmz...need to brush up on my guitar wrk liaoz...hahah....anyway, now surrounded by MA...hahahhaa...shiokness to the max!

2004-09-21T07:57:00.000+08:00

slogging myself through another working day..what a drag...
This thought flashed into my mind this morning as I was on my way to Jason,my NS collegue,house: "What joy is there when you don't get to share it with a beloved?"

2004-09-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

And maybe my love will come back someday, only Heaven knows...
And maybe our hearts will find their way, only Heaven knows...
And all I can do now is to hope and pray, 'cos my Father knows...

2004-09-13T01:33:00.000+08:00

Borrowed from Napoleon himself for You,my special one.

An adaptation from Napoleon's letter to Josephine.
This is my epistle to you...

I wake filled with thoughts of you.
Your photo and the intoxicating evenings
which we spent these 14mths have left my senses in turmoil.
Sweet incomparable Valerie, what a strange effect you have on my heart!
Are you angry? Do I see you looking sad? Are you worried?
My soul aches with sorrow, and there can be no rest for your lover;
But is there still more in store for me when,
Yielding to the profound feelings which overwhelm me,
I draw from your lips, from your heart a love which consumes me with fire?
Ah! it was last night that I fully realized how false an image of you your photo gives!
You have left at dusk; never will I know if we will be back again.
Until then, mio dolce amor, a thousand kisses; but give me none in return,
For they set my blood on fire.

Charlie Brown

2004-09-06T23:14:00.000+08:00

Beyond

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2004-09-06T23:06:00.000+08:00

heez....tmr is my b'dae...tmr is one of those days when i get to meet Val...heez...pretty excited...
anyway, i've began to realised how music is able to merge people from different background together. I've discovered the missing link between me and bengs;BEYOND. hahaha....I was playing Beyond - Hai Kuo Tian Kong on my lappy den suddenly the whole office started the whole sing along!hahaah...Beyond unites!

2004-08-31T07:25:00.000+08:00

I'm right now once again sitting at my office, sipping my breakfast through a straw. Heez...it's not some nutritional aka weight-loss drink, it's jus milo. I've reckoned that I'd better start blogging now when I have time, rather than when I get home, tired.

It's been 1week,1day,10hrs and 1min since we took on the time out. I can say that I'm seeing much more changes in my own personal lifestyle within this first week. I was feeling some what lost and empty in the beginning. However, God gave me the strenght to move on with Him at this point of time and the courage to face the adversities challenging me. Sometimes I wonder, was I hurt too deep to feel the pain or am I really healed by His grace. I choose to take a step of faith and believe that it was Him who have healed my dilapidated heart. Hmmz... I have to confess though, I still do miss her. Deep down in my heart, I know we'll be back someday. I'm waiting for that day.

As much as I'm longing to be 'reattached' again, I'm kind of enjoying the temporary singlehood now. Not that I'm planning to chase any other girls or whatever reasosn along that line, but just that I was able to cramp more of my choice of activites for my day. Not that when I was with her, I'm not enjoying it. It's just that when you're attached, you have another person's opinion to consider. I truly enjoyed those days when I was with her too. We've done crazy things while we're on a photo hunt, spent lovely quiet evenings at the beach looking down at the waves beating down on the shoreline. The waves of emotions are surely hitting hard on my cardio shoreline.

Relieved; now I know that she's moving on pretty well with God. Though there are times where she's felt alone, she has demonstrated a very wise and matured decision which is to depend on Him. I pray that God will continue to open up past wounds and heal them in His timing.

God has been doing great work in my life too. I'm right now living very closely to my objectives for the time out. I'm pretty much involved in some simple guitar-ing with some of my close friends, have been taking up Class 2B lessons and leading quite a healthy lifestyle by going to swim every now and then. I want to thank God for blessing me through my evaluation test yesterday. Though I failed the first time round last week, God has certainly showed me that I was not prepared enough for the previous evaluation test. I scored 46 out of 50 yesterday. On the instance of passing, I went to book my Riding Theor Test. My test date is on 041004, 1930hr. I hope to get my Class 2B as soon as possible. I have been looking at Vespas all day long, really would want to own and ride in of these restored beauties...

I was listening to the new Further Seems Forever album, shiok sial...hahaha...but a bit pricy lah;SGD$35. Hope John C brings it in soon *hint* ! And people, pls continue to pray for God to create in val and I a pure heart, I'ld really want to see our love flourish like the Sunflowers in the morning of Spring...Lastly, also that God would give me more creative ideas flowing out of me...That's all folks...

Psalms 147

1 Praise the LORD! How good it is to sing praises to our God! How delightful and how right! 2 The LORD is rebuilding Jerusalem and bringing the exiles back to Israel. 3 He heals the brokenhearted, binding up their wounds. 4 He counts the stars and calls them all by name. 5 How great is our Lord! His power is absolute! His understanding is beyond comprehension! 6 The LORD supports the humble, but he brings the wicked down into the dust. 7 Sing out your thanks to the LORD; sing praises to our God, accompanied by harps. 8 He covers the heavens with clouds, provides rain for the earth, and makes the green grass grow in mountain pastures. 9 He feeds the wild animals, and the young ravens cry to him for food. 10 The strength of a horse does not impress him; how puny in his sight is the strength of a man. 11 Rather, the LORD's delight is in those who honor him, those who put their hope in his unfailing love.

12 Praise the LORD, O Jerusalem! Praise your God, O Zion! 13 For he has fortified the bars of your gates and blessed your children within you. 14 He sends peace across your nation and satisfies you with plenty of the finest wheat. 15 He sends his orders to the world – how swiftly his word flies! 16 He sends the snow like white wool; he scatters frost upon the ground like ashes. 17 He hurls the hail like stones. Who can stand against his freezing cold? 18 Then, at his command, it all melts. He sends his winds, and the ice thaws. 19 He has revealed his words to Jacob, his principles and laws to Israel. 20 He has not done this with any other nation; they do not know his laws. Praise the LORD!

"...This is a resolution, this is a new year, this is a new beginning, this is a time to reveren for my Saviour, my Father, my Friend and my Lord..."

2004-08-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

Anwyay, I'm really proud of my Sweet Heart... This decision displayed her maturity in handling situations. And this song is for her....

Eagles - Love will keep us alive

I was standing
All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide

Lost and lonely
Now you've given me the will to survive
When we're hungry...love will keep us alive

Don't you worry
Sometimes you've just gotta let it ride
The world is changing
Right before your eyes
Now I've found you
There's no more emptiness inside
When we're hungry...love will keep us alive

I would die for you
Climb the highest mountain
Baby, there's nothing I wouldn't do

I was standing
All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide
Lost and lonely
Now you've given me the will to survive
When we're hungry...love will keep us alive

God is love and I believe Love will keep us alive!!!

2004-08-23T16:35:00.000+08:00

An end to a chapter and the pre-roll of another is beginning.
Val and I have decided to take a time out as of yesterday(220804). It was not a rash decision. We've discussed and thought that it'ld be appropriate. As both of us were seeking the Lord, we have a unanimous answer;let go. We've even took the discussion further by pulling in the help of Marcus and Liana.I really thank them for facilitating.They made things even clearer and caused us to be more focused rather than blinded by emotions. Marcus gave us a short and sweet action plan to follow.It is as follow:P.O.D

P stands for Purpose. What is our individual purpose for this time out.

O stands for Objective. What is/are the objective(s) we want to meet before getting back.

D stands for Defination. Both of us have came up with the defination of our new-born boundries such as no body contact,no more daily phone calls,no more calling of dears and darlings,a regimental monthly meeting to have an AAR(After Action Review) to check on how each other is doing. D also stands for destiny. During this period of our time out, both of us will attempt to find out more about ourselves,our life purposes,our values. We agreed that there needs to be commonalities as we're thinking of marriage.

Personally, this is my P.O.D (i hope Val would write hers too.)

P: My purpose for this time out is because I wan to trust God. Since I say I truly love her, let my actions show it. Loving someone doesn't mean you possese that someone. In fact, true love allows free-will. God loves us and that is why He granted us free-will. Val initiated the time out and I believe she has her own reasons for it and I want to be there to support her in her decision. This is an act of showcasing my love for both God and Val. I love God, that is why I want to obey Him to let her go. I love Val, that is why I want to let her go to Him. I didn't let Val go to the world but to my loving Father.

O:Firstly, I would like to write out my personal mission statement so that it really will cause me to reflect and it will act as a compass when my life gets complicated. Good works doesn't mean God's work but God's work definately is Good work. The relativity of good and bad is based in the light of God.He is the standard. Therefore, in our eyes, some of the things we do may seem good in our own imperfect point of view, but as long as it is not what God desires for us to do, it is not a good work. This doesn't mean we stop doing good work, but we should always check the motivation,attitude and align it to what God desires. Serving excessively certainly doesn't show that you're a better christian. It just shows that you're not focused in what God desires for you to do and you're just doing everything to 'play safe'. This will cause to be drained out spiritually very quickly. My objectives are very simple:

1)PMS aka Personal Mission Statement
2)Align my lifestyle to God's cosmic purpose for me
3)Improve on my guitar skills
4)Seeking God

D:Both of us have come to a concensus of calling not more than twice a week JUST TO CHECK ON HOW IS EACH OTHER DOING and not some sweet lovey dovey talks. We'ld meet once a month to catch up with each other and we'ld do an AAR on the month so that we can plot our progress to check if there's positive or negative growth. No more calling of names such as Dears,Darlings,Sayangs,Sweety,SweetHeart and etc etc...Definately no more body contact such as holding hands, shoulders, waist, kisses, long hugs.

As for destiny. God showed me the word Messenger as I was praying for my life purpose. And He supported the word with Matt 10. I will continue seeking Him to reconfirm my vocational calling. I really would want to serve full time in ministry work. Personally, I would want to serve full time in Sonic Edge. However, I don't want to limit God's work in me and I shall remain open-minded regarding where I'ld go.

I seek everyone that is reading this to keep Val and I in your utmost prayers. We really need it.Thank you!

"...If I'ld say go your own way, I'll be with you. Make mistakes and I'll forgive you. Home is waiting here for you when you return..."

2004-08-19T14:51:00.001+08:00

haiz...another boring day as usual at work.Right now tuning in to Whence He Came-the shorter story, track 4, the lonely road. Before that, was tuning in to The Gloria Record and also jus finished Further Seems Forever before WHC. My officer jus told us that our workload will be increasing from next weeks onwards. Hmmz...a gd time to put my emotions aside and concentrate on wrk i guess.Not that I don't feel a thing, nor that the thing doesn't mean a thing to me. Just that this is a time for grieving i guess. All things will come to pass, Does all good things have to come to an end? Val taught me that not all good things have to come to an end. I hope our relationship will be one of those good things that will last.

Went for home grp last nite despite being late. Jon Chan's dad was touching something on false teaching. yah...anyway,got to stop here cos someone needs to use the office's com...will be back for more!!!

2004-08-19T14:51:00.000+08:00

2004-08-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

Jus a little update on my posting...heez...I thank God that I'm posted to be part of the NDP. I'm in the NDP Secretariet Team. The team's job is to schedule all the acts and performaces,design the banners,posters, all the publicity stuffs including t-shirts.Screen the pre parade segement to be approved by the ministers. Design the screenings or whatever CG tt goes on the tv or the big screen in the stadium. All the background plannign and designing are done by this team. I feel so honoured and proud to have been posted to this team. I get to book out everyday, and my job's 8-5. I can save money by eating cookhouse food although the canteen is only 5 steps away. Anyway, i really hope God will use me to glorify Himself thru this posting of mine.

NDP 2005, Here I Come!!!!

2004-08-13T13:06:00.000+08:00

using this pic as my avatar...

Posted by Hello

2004-08-13T12:54:00.000+08:00

That is me by the way...

Posted by Hello

2004-08-13T12:45:00.000+08:00

my camp...

Posted by Hello

2004-08-13T11:13:00.000+08:00

Comd SAF BMTC congratulates you for your successful completion of the BMT.

Your Posting Order is listed below:

1.You are posted to
3 DIV ARTY HQ.

2.Your vocation is
ADMIN SUPPORT ASST.

3. Your are to report to:
Amoy Quee Camp, BLK 461B, ORDERLY ROOM.

Reporting Date/Time:
16/08/2004 at 0800 hrs.

Person to report to:
Chief Clerk

Contact Number:
64804680

You are required to report in smart no.4 uniform (PES E recruits to be in No 3 uniform), except for those assigned to Police Force.

4.Special Instruction:
You are not required to bring along the SAF issued items given during BMT, except for PT Kit. Check with your unit whether you are required to stay in.

Your Acknowledgement Code is S2893

This is my posting...woke up ard 1000hrs,body like automatic wake up one.Took a look at the time den couldn't get to slp so went back to check my posting...Heez...love my posting,thank God He arranged somewhere near my place instead of Lim Chu Kang or Chua Chu Kang...Just hope to get Stay Out...I dun mind stay in either lah...can save money....pls pray for my stay in/out...thankz...will update ASAP...keep u guys updated

2004-08-13T03:14:00.000+08:00

one of the best shots my Darling took!

2004-08-13T03:02:00.000+08:00

Some one of the coolest pic i've taken...

2004-08-12T15:10:00.000+08:00

My Sweety...

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2004-08-10T23:20:00.000+08:00

heez...finally,an end to all the mess and the beginning of a beautiful start.
An end to my BMT on 070804 and the start of my unit life on 160804.
I've finally graduated from BMT and now heading towards army life. I'm beginning to miss all my frens in BMT. The start of our frenship fostered through the thicks and thins of army. NS has surely nurtured my life.I've learnt quite a bit frm NS too.Most of all,I wanna give thanks to my God,Jesus Christ! He continued to mould me,in fact more intensively, during my stay in Tekong. I've experienced home-sickness,loneliness,disappointments,frustrations more den ever in my life. During my field camp period, I certainly missed even my bunk,not to mention my room. It's so cosy,clean and comfy...NS made me appreciate and not take my surroundings for granted. Though they have been trying to brainwash me to be an atheist,I thank the Lord for the strenght to stand firm in my faith.I've learnt to be patient with ppl who are slow in learning,to be understanding and loving to those who are really damn unloveable.Trust me,I tot i've seen worse.NS showed me that there are worse!My buddy is Public Enemy No. 1,my section was the slowest until I pushed them harder,being the section IC. Sometimes it's even harder because ppl dun appreciate you as the section IC and they think that u're being hard on them,trying to push them ard jus becos i'm the IC. When I was loose in my standard in area cleaning and stand-by area, we kenna from the Sergents;nobody likes to do punishment,but in my mind,I enjoyed doing it becos I wan them to know tt there needs to be some standard and the reason why I'm so strict with them is becos I love them and I dun wan to see them doing punishment. Well, humans being humans, they sometimes jus dun listen. So wat choice do I have but to serve them. I would pack their shoes,SBOs,tighten their bedsheets and pillow cases and and clean areas which are not so clean myself. Do I get any appreciation from them,only a few came up to thank me. I really appreciate those encouragements that they've given me.Overall,I think my section has done well.All of us are quite united,there's no discrimination in my bunk...yah...If a leader's criteria is to serve,den i think i've managed to pass the mark bah...Hope my section did have a nice time with me as the section IC.

Anyway,really thank all those who've kept me in their prayers...thank you guys!heez...I really miss going back to Sonic Edge.Well, I guess my prayer items would include this bah...

1)My Posting to Unit - Hope to get posted to somewhere near my hse and get an 8-5 vocation so that I can take up another course.

2)If I can study during the week,what sch should i go to. Planning to take up a communication course, either a part-time degree or diploma.

Yapz...that's all folks...